In the Pile

by Alan Mills

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04:27
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06:00
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02:52
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05:28
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04:54
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02:38
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03:48
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01:22

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Recorded and engineered in the spring of 2016.

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released April 1, 2016

Alan Mills. Thankful for Elliot, Mom & Sis, Dave & Jean, Burl, Jeremy & Erika, and Erika M.

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Track Name: CBP
Listen from a tower
You don’t attend - Any hour
(You) put your heart out - On the table
Not on the menu
No one devoured

Nobody left you
Always absent
And always there

Bleed your little heart out
We’re tryin’ to steer you – steer you right
Complications were open ended
You had Collection - Selective listening

Nobody left you
Always absent
And always there

Tried to warn you
And inform you
You tread along

It’s not easy
Just don’t believe me
Or just keep hanging on
Track Name: How to Be
People ask me how to be
Convincing that I’d know how to
Speak so real

They don’t see the battle
Who am I fooling. Them or my
Imagination

But I’m gonna break out of this shell
I gotta do something with the
Rumble within

It isn’t a calling
It’s simply cathartic
And maybe could solve this

I don’t know how the words come out
Just because I’m singing doesn’t
Make me a talker.

It’s a vessel and it’s a curse
Lumbers polished cancers
To pretty jewels

How something grows
Truly deformed
Yet beautiful

What if I disclose
Every ounce of heart on
This very soil

Still couldn’t find the will
To chuckle with the warmth
Of your very soul

I keep my company
At distance for a cause that
Nobody knows

So bring out the skeletons
Rid myself of foolish
Repeated flaws

-v3- 
I’m beating the battles with myself
Betting it’s something you’d not
Even notice

They say you are what you eat, I guess
I’m done being a pill or the
Appendage of others

I’ll make it work
Defy the hurt


What if I disclose
Every ounce of heart on
This very soil

Still couldn’t find the will
To chuckle with the warmth
Of your very soul

I keep my company
At distance for a cause that
Nobody knows

So bring out the skeletons
Rid myself of foolish
Repeated flaws
Track Name: Stay Home
Long thru the night
Decending
Time breaks apart

Lost in our fright
Rescinded
Relapsing starts

As I see you give your number
onto his arms

And I know I’m lackin'
aint got the charm

C))And I never felt that you’d be
To fall for someone like me
No recourse to learn that’s because
I already see

Maybe it was better
To stay home alone

Severing the tensions
that shouldn't have grown

V2) I'll be alright
Don't' worry
I'll dust myself off

I'm not that kind
of human
to peel it apart

and I know you're fearful
oh where to begin

Yet I hold the thoughts of
Not giving in

C)) '''''
Maybe I should listen
And not fall ahead

Let go of the lesson
Or just stay in bed
Track Name: Migrations
Tapping the bricks of the walls I put up
Been on a mission to right wrongs I’ve done

Can’t complicate thing for pretty face I’ve loved
Scaring myself for faults don’t wanna bring up

Gchor
What became of | How deep is love | Am I blind
The decay I | Can’t relate I’ve | Lost my mind
I’ve been reeling | Suppressed feeling | For what cannot
I’ll be okay just | Got to persuade I’m | Doing just fine

V
Just want to be a better me I can trust
Tired of paining those when I’m fuckin’ up
If I’m super then why do I feel so alone
happy you’re out there, and I’m healing at home

Gchor
What became of | How deep is love | Am I blind
The decay I | Can’t relate I’ve | Lost my mind
I’ve been reeling | Suppressed feeling | For what cannot
I’ll be okay just | Got to persuade I’m | Doing just fine

O
I wouldn’t know | Where to begin | I’ve put up walls | I’m savin’ my skin.
Feeling below | Birds migration | But you here hold | this fire within
Track Name: Better Off
Lost my mind
For the very last time

Had me wrecked. Did a number.

About time I
Open up my eyes
C
And decide what life I can bring up
Desert those lies you conjure on
To the sinking ships
And deceit runs across your lips

For the rudder has to take charge
I’ll be better off.
V2
The treasures I’ve -- had all along

Complicated from a siren song

Ran me aground time and again for scent of her sin )(and I’m thinking)
C
I know what life I can bring up
Desert those lies you conjure on
To the sinking ships
And deceit runs across your lips

For the rudder has to take charge
I’ll be better off.

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